1 year in Mildura!!!
It has been a helluva ride!
Feels like both just yesterday and like I’ve lived here the whole time.
I don’t think the gratitude will ever die in me for the strength it took to say that the life I was living wasn’t designed for me and that I would take all the challenges that come with being a single, homeschooling, small business owning mum of higher needs kids if it meant a chance to actually walk this lifetime with permission to be the wild, quirky, passionate and raw woman that I was born to be.
To trust that although the decision to leave would make some things a whole lot tougher there is nothing more important than being able to stand in the world as who you truly are and what you truly stand for.
And even more important to not have to fight so much for that right.
To just be and surround myself with the people that enjoy my weird, not wish I would play the part and put on my mask so I can keep the peace.
Being a square peg trying to fit in a round hole was so excruciatingly lonely.
I had the husband, the pool, the money, ‘the dream’…. but the price I had to pay for that was to give up me.
The price for getting what I should have wanted was way too high.
One year ago I became the owner of my own home and the owner of a new story
One where I would never feel lonely again because I would come home to me each night.
One where I get to make the rules for what’s actually important to me.
One where I get to believe that I am really so easy to love after all and that I get to decide that – that’s not anyone else’s right to vote upon.
That I was always ‘good enough’ to spend time with.
We all were always enough.
Now that I only hang with people that genuinely see that, I don’t hate myself anymore.
I don’t believe the labels I used to be asked to wear.
I cannot wait to celebrate that this weekend.
Trapeze, village catch up doing silks together and a karaoke party.
And I welcome anyone that would like to come.
I celebrate everyone that’s taking the steps to choose their own adventure.
I have learnt that more you’re ok with you the more you can open your heart to others.
And I’m here cheering us all on – may we all remember we were always amazing.
May we all have something to celebrate ourselves for in another 12 months time!